Final Reflection

1. Different pieces of writing I've done this semester tends to be a lot of blog post, but I've also commented a lot, and I've been writing an original story. I'm really excited to write my original story, and I'm even going to use one of my blog posts in it. I don't do a lot of work in my journal- I actually quite enjoyed the blogging experience. 


2. I've read several posts by Kinzie, Taylor, Liana, Jessica, and Raven. They were all greatly written, and I think it was mainly the writing we did around Halloween that I've read and commented on. I haven't been able to do a lot of reading, unfortunately- in or out of class. I've read a couple books- Antigoddess and The Bane Chronicles. I enjoyed both books, I just wish I had time to read more. I may read over all- or most- blogs over winter break. 


3. Setting up my blog was a bit odd. I had no idea what I was doing- I had never blogged before. When we were asked to come up with a title for the blog, I stammered a bit. A name? I could hardly name a character let alone a blog. Either way, I knew I wanted something in the title about theatre. The Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen? No, that's too cliche, plus there's already a movie named that. The Confessions of a Teenage Theatre Queen? What am I confessing?! And calling myself a theatre Queen sounded horrible. The Confessions and Ramblings of a Teenage Theatre Kid? What a mouthful, but I guess it worked. It's not like I could come up with anything cool. I didn't expect anyone to read it, so I suppose a longer name was okay. I think I'll continue using it though. Maybe post clips of my original story so you could read it. Random clips that I'm dying to write, but have no where to put them. I like that idea,


4. Journaling is...a bit awkward for me, honestly. When I was younger, I could never keep a diary, and a journal reminds me so much of the one I failed to keep up with as a child. I love writing- especially by hand- but keeping up with it was a bit weird. 

5. I wrote this a while back when we were talking about Maya Angelo, and is inspired by her Caged Bird poem. I really liked this poem, I thought it was semi-notable. 


I know why she apologizes as she hides behind the curtain of hairand waits till the topic changeswhile silently cursing her stupidity.


I know why her story trails off as her eyes dance across those who surround herand she bites her lip while trying to focus on something else.


She wasn't made for this worldand her crushing insecuritieswhile waiting for someone to care. 


She was meant to be freeto travelto satisfy her never ending curiosityto laugh freely without care.


But she bottled up her freedomand her wanderlustand tucked away her curiosityand forces her laughteras she focuses her thoughts on something else. 


6. Another piece of writing that I liked was Pillow Talk. I probably shouldn't like something that was so depressing, but its certainly one of my favorites. 


"The pain in her chest was unbearable, and she curled in on herself. She hadn’t done a damn thing to deserve this pain. She clutched her pillow desperately as she gasped in pain, closing her eyes tightly. And then- just like that- the pain begun to fade. She sniffled as she lifted her tear-streaked face from the pillow. Whimpers of pain escaped her, but even her whimpering was lessening. She sighed before a hiccup overtook her, and she ran a hand through her messy hair."


It just goes to show that everything will pass. Nothing is permanent. 


7. In the future, I really hope to become a writer. I love writing stories about far off places, or people that exist that shouldn't. I'm currently writing an actual story, and I'm hoping to get it finished before I graduate. I'm no where near done at the moment, but I'm getting there!


8. I'm not exactly the best with words of encouragement, but I guess I'll give it a shot. 

Try and find your passion in this world. Whether it be writing, music, gymnastics, find something that brings you joy. Find something the you never what to stop doing- something you can't see yourself without. Never let it go. If you ever get frustrated with it, take a break. But never forget about it. Find your happiness in this world, and never let it go.

101 Things About Me.

1. A majority of people I know call me Cupcake, and most of them can't remember my real name.

2.I tend to lick things that get too close to my face. I really only lick one person's face. Needless to say, my friend Grace refuses to hug me.

3. I will only listen to Christmas music after Thanksgiving. My manager thinks I'm crazy. I will occasionally listen to Baby, Its Cold Outside (sung by Rufus Wainwright) through the entire year. It's my favorite.

4. I love pie. Any pie except blueberry.

5. I don't like blueberries- unless they're in muffin form.

6. I have anxiety about driving. Especially if we're any where near a concrete median.

7. When I first started counting, I told my parents I could count to one hundred and ten, but they told me that the number didn't exist. I believed them until I entered fourth grade.

8. My entire being is made of sass.

9. I'm also made of sarcasm.

10. I'm pretty sure coffee (and other caffeinated beverages) run through my veins instead of blood. I'm not even sorry.

11. I love beanies. Some days I probably look like a druggie when I wear them, but that hasn't stopped me yet.

12. According to one of my best friends I'm "freaking beautiful, but I don't believe it". Well, I have some good days. Other days I look like a drug addict in a Hufflepuff beanie.

13. My friends and I decided I was the human embodiment of Megara from Disney's Hercules. I don't object.

14. I love books. I love the smell of new books. I could probably tell you anything you wanted to know about the entirety of the Percy Jackson series, spout off facts about Harry Potter, or be found sobbing over a copy of The Fault in Our Stars. I really like books.

15. The zombie apocalypse will happen, and I'm ready for it. The Walking Dead's facebook page posted a huge spoiler about Sunday night's episode before I could even watch it. words could not describe my anger.

16. My friend Emmi (the same from number 12) believes I'm spontaneous.

17. Food is love. Food is life. I. Love. Food. I enjoy cooking as well.

18. Long story short, my friends ended up dubbing me with the title of Theatre Satan. I'm still not really sure how- or why.

19. I have moments when I'm loud, but most of the time I can be pretty quiet. And no, nothing's wrong when that happens.

20. I'm very actively involved in theatre. Stage hand, makeup artist, usher, costumes, stage manager, and currently the Assistant Director for Peter Pan Jr.

21. My favorite Shakespeare play is Much Ado About Nothing- which happens to be our advanced acting one-act, and I hope I nail the audition today.

22. Music is kind of my life. I've gone through way too many headphones simply because I use them everyday. I'm not me without music.

23. I love acapella music. The Pentatonix are probably my favorite acapella group.

24. My mom gave me the first ring she ever bought herself to my as (part of) my 17th birthday present this past summer. I wear it everyday of my left ring finger.

25. I currently have three marks on the back of my right hand from burning (or scratching) it on the popper at work.

26. The first job I applied to was at the Palace. I've been working there for about 2 and a half months. I was also the only application I've ever filled out.

27. My mom and I are both avid Disney fans.

28. I love my mother, but lately we've been bumping heads a lot.

29. I love the look of practically anything and everything vintage.

30. I really want a 1973 (or at least around that year) red Volkswagen Beetle. Or a '67 Chevy Impala (in black).

31. I've worked on cars before, and I actually really enjoyed it.

32. I've ridden- as well as driven- a motorcycle. I loved it.

33. I may have a slight adrenaline problem. I am in love with things that make my heart race.

34. I enjoy scary movies.

35. Recently, I've gone to the movies by myself. It wasn't actually that bad.

36. Some days I feel like I have ADHD. I get distracted way too easily, and sometimes I loathe sitting still in one place.

37. One of the only times I don't mind sitting still is when I'm on a road trip.

38. I prefer traveling by car if possible. Turbulence is so not my friend.

39. I could only eat eggs with ketchup as a child. I'm still not a fan of eating them.

40. I have the most ridiculous case of wanderlust, and I love it.

41. When I was younger, we moved a lot around Springfield, and mom told me we had gypsy blood. I strongly believe that it's a very real thing. I quite enjoy my gypsy blood.

42. I have never been to the circus.

43. Never broken a bone, or twisted anything. Never been admitted to a hospital, either.

44.  I love watching Supernatural even though it gives me a tremendous amount of feels.

45. I firmly believe family isn’t just blood.

46. I have a few close friends, but only one that achieves best friend status.

47.  When it comes to eating, I like haven an even number of things. I chew something on the left side of my mouth, and then chew the same amount of the same thing on the other side.

48. I love telling puns.

49. There’s an abundance of selfies on my phone.

50. I like my music incredibly loud. Maybe that’s why my headphones always break in a few months…

51. My music tastes are a wide variety. From country to punk rock to Broadway musicals to classic rock to Disney. I love it.

52. I enjoy when things sparkle.

53. I have the attention span of a goldfish.

54. I tend to get my hopes up a lot.

55. I can get a bit cocky if I let my mind run a lot. It’s never very good.

56. When I was younger, I wanted to take dance lessons and be a ballerina. My mom laughed and told me I wasn’t graceful enough. When I turned to walk away, I ended up running into a wall.

57. Typically, I don’t like people.

58. I hate doing dishes- especially at work. I had to do dishes at home by hand for two years straight since our dishwasher was broken, and our landlord was a jerk.

59. On the last day of school my junior year of High School, I wore a pink lace dress. I utterly shocked multiple people in my advanced acting class. They’ve never seen me in a dress, or in a color that was so girly.

60. Tech people have to wear all black during performances. I have a large amount of black clothing items.

61. I gave my best friend- she’s more so my sister- the nick name of Vanilla. I added I.C.E. to her contact name for emergencies. I’ve debated putting Ice, Ice, Baby as her ringtone.

62. I enjoy almost any pun, as long as they’re witty.

63. Shakespearian curses are amongst my favorite things.

64. I hate seeing the frame of my glasses while I’m wearing them, so I had to get the ‘Hipster’ glasses to avoid seeing the frame.

65. In middle school, I was one of those people that were obsessed with Twilight. Thank God I outgrew that phase.

66. Speaking of middle school, I had knee-high converse with comic book designs on them. I loved them and wore them all the time- even with shorts. I tend to block out that period of my life.

67. I’m attempting to plan out my first tattoo. I already have the following ten figured out.

68. I love unnatural hair colors. I wanted to dye my hair lavender before I was hired at my first job. I’ve had the last two inches of my hair dyed blue my sophomore year.

69. I love oversized sweatshirts.

70. My mission in life is to own a pair of converse in every color. I’m slowly getting there.

71. Even though I’m not very girly, I love heels. Oxford heels, two-toned, T-Straps, pumps, I find them so pretty.

72. I have times when I can be super girly.

73. I really want a leather jacket.

74. I’ve been to Barn Swings twice, and I’ve gone on the Superman at least ten times in total.

75. Bonfires are beautiful, and I love them.

76. I love to write, and I’m attempting to start on my first original book.

77. I’m kinda excited to move out on my own. The thought of it is super appealing to me. I have no idea why. 

78. I try to make a lot of friends, but never know how to keep the friendship alive- and strong.

79. Beef lo mein is probably my favorite food for dinner. Or maybe tater tot casserole…

80. I love milkshakes.

81. When I go to Wendy’s , I like getting fries and a chocolate frosty. My dad doesn’t understand why I like dipping my fries in my frosty.

82. I typically don’t like being center of attention. It makes me nervous.

83. I like music more than I like people.

84. I’m overprotective of those that I’m close to.

85. I love acting for the simple fact that I don’t have to be myself while I’m on stage.

86. I don’t like serious situations.

87. I have major trust issues.

88. I tend to be really paranoid.

89. I want to travel all over the world.

90. Every time I try to tan, I end up burning and adding 38 more freckles to my collection.

91. For some ridiculous reason, I’ve always wanted an older brother.

92. I love my long hair, but I’ve debated cutting it short on multiple occasions.

93. I’ve recently found out that the only tea I will- or can- drink is sweet tea. I’m too southern for anything else.

94. I have no idea what I’m doing with my life, and that terrifies me.

95. Some night I can’t sleep. I’ve stayed up till three or four a.m. drawing or cleaning my room.

96. It is never a very good idea for me to be alone with my thoughts for too long.

97. Sleep is a beautiful thing, and I love it.

98. I enjoy sleeping with my dogs on my bed because they keep my feet warm.

99. I never feel very at home anywhere. Maybe that’s because of my gypsy blood.

100. I hate watching the news because it reminds me just how crappy our world is turning out to be.

101. I’m terrified for my future. I can’t fathom where I’ll end up.